Do You Realise?

For various reasons it has been a very bittersweet Friday. There are life events that mark your passage through the world, and retirement is definitely one of those. Retirement on this occasion was a happy event - at the end of a full working life and the years ahead look like a time that will be spent with loved ones and on some much anticipated favourite activities. But I will miss my colleague so much. It feels like a loss. This song by The Flaming Lips, called “Do You Realise?” came to mind.

Do you realise
That you have the most beautiful face?
Do you realise
We're floating in space?
Do you realise
That happiness makes you cry?
Do you realise
That everyone you know someday will die?

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes
Let them know you realise that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realise the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round 

Eating hasn’t been great today. I went out for lunch with colleagues to celebrate the event and there was set courses so I couldn’t avoid eating. I ate far more than I felt comfortable with and ended up purging. And I developed a headache which doesn’t seem to want to go away. Though at least it is Friday and I'm going to try really hard to stick to eating planned food for tonight and not purging.